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Tonight I Did...Well Something!

I may not have done it, you know "it", the life changing, end all, be all, best decision of my life thing, but I did do something!

I began a new Blog "Me and My Broken Brain" (check it out) and I'm super proud of myself! 

I know, I know. How am I ever gonna keep up with a third Blog when I spend so many hours on this one (insert sarcastic voice here)?! However, not only have I posted more blog posts this month than almost ever (combined and multiplied by three), but this one actually really means something to me. All of my writing is pretty personal, this blog reveals the intimate parts of me or will and my other is dedicated to the little loves of my life, but the journey through my seizure disorder has been the center of it all. So, I'm going to explore it, open it up, and try it out for all of the world (or the four friends that see this and actually read it...and my mom of course). 

I'm hoping this will lead to something. 

Maybe it will help me relieve some of the stress, maybe it'll help someone else understand their disorder, maybe it'll become a book, maybe I'm dreaming. 

No matter what, it's a step. 

It's something.

Tonight I did something and I'm pretty happy about it.

New Year, New Resolutions

Happy New Year! 

2013 was great in a million ways and horrible in a million more.

I had my first officially old birthday, I still live with my parents, I'm back in school (Grad school this time), I am working part time barely making any money, I did not lose that jobless/student loan debt/where am I going in this world 25lbs (much worse than the freshman 15) and my writing has practically stalled. 

Enter 2014.

That's all gonna change in the next 365 days. 

Or so I hope.

I've got big plans for this new year, and a somewhat solid plan to make them happen. Let's hope! 

Good luck to you and your new year!

The Darkest Cave

We just want love! 

It used to seem like a given, like as a human it was a right, a step in the process of living. 

But it seems like the older we get the more we realize we were tricked, lied to. Love isn't a part of the deal, it's a secret passageway into a cave. 

And it's getting dark and cold and lonely down here. 

Tonight I want change.

Tonight I want out.

Tonight I want light.

Tonight I'll say it.

Horror Find Me

I need to write something scary. Horrifying.

Maybe I should describe myself without makeup. I know it scares me every morning.

That's the problem with assignments, I can't ever follow them. My body, or maybe my mind, physically rejects them.

Perhaps the bigger problem is that I have a different opinion of what scary is. 

For example, 

Creepy guy with a big gun? Meh. It happens.

Girl with back fat hanging out? Scarred for life.

Besides I'd probably be the girl that fell in love with her abductor, I'd see some Heathcliff-esque quality and find him irresistible. (I may have a few problems, we'll dig into that another day.) Besides, what's worse than a demonic psychopath? My last couple of ex boyfriends.

So anyway, back to this horror story I need to write.

I'll probably go for a sexy woman. I've always loved the villainess who has a thing for the superhero, and of course the superheroes always return those inappropriate sexual feelings, think Poison Ivy and Batman.

Hmmm...maybe I can make this work.

I'll let you know!

Goodnight.

Two Years

That sad, awful, truest of truths is that time can change everything and nothing at all.

I am older and filled with a need to follow my dreams but held back by the realities of life. I need a job, the big kid kind. Which I found, at a lovely place filled with lovely people, that makes me want to scream in pain. It is not the jobs fault, it is my searching soul telling to get out there and find my true path. Sadly, that path does not come with money, insurance, or security. The path I want to follow is a creative one. It is dangerous, because it is unknown and student loans are creeping around every corner demanding payment to pass. 

Frankly, it sucks. 

However, I have decided to attempt a multitasking of life. I will pursue my creative path, wherever it may take me, but I will keep the big kid job in the real world until I find myself secure enough to let go. 

Or I may just marry a doctor. Ha. If it was only that easy! 

So, what should you expect from this log? I suppose it will be filled with my thoughts, my silly struggles, my ridiculous ranting, and the occasional jokes. It may be for no one but me, but I suppose that's a wild enough audience. If you do stop by, I hope you enjoy and respond with opinions, advice, and maybe a little laugh of your own. 

Thanks for taking me back, I will do my best not to let you down. 

Goodnight.

Nice To See You All Again

So, if you haven't noticed, I Haven't posted a new blog in, we'll, forever. Broken computer, lack of Internet access, straight up laziness, blame it on whichever you'd like, but either way, I'm back!! 

I hope.

Seriously, I am setting some goals to get my bum writing and this is number one. So I'll see you all later tonight!